Birthday Blues

So I completely screwed up this weekend and my co-workers made me feel worst. I ate a TON this weekend to even where my stomach started to hurt.

I have no self control. I am determined to prove myself more than anything wrong...and to prove to everyone that at the age of 37 which is next year.. I will not have high blood pressure or diabetes!

145/93

So I went to the doctor today and got the news I really didn't want BUT really needed to hear. My dear co-worker Della told me awhile back that I shouldn't wait til I HAVE to loose weight for something to be wrong with me.... BUT this time I didn't ... my honest motivation was my wedding day  and to get on the healthy eating bandwagon!

So what the blood pressure thingy said 145/93 is a hot skip and a jump from the BIG H...and the doctor confirmed that I HAVE to loose weight. She wants me to get under 200lbs! Ok.. so that shouldn't be hard right... it's not like im 250lbs (thank you Jesus!!)

But, I know for a fact that i'll have to hit the gym... put the Plantain chips down and pick up some great tips from a health master Ms. Claresta !! (She needs a blog so I can tag her). I am naturally thick but, I have lost a good amount of weight before...and I know I can do it again!

Wish me luck!!

 I was 135lbs in this pic... praying that I can get close!!

Headaches...Headahces..and More Headaches

::Praying::

Thank you God in your holy name for this day... Lord you are my stregnth and I need you on this day. Father please do all that you can to physically release the pressure that is crushing my brain. My head is killing me ..in your name I pray ...

-Amen

So I have been for the past 72 hours been dealing with some serious headaches. I have been stressing over so many things.... and then stopped stressing and now I think my body is now catching up!

Working out.. has been amazing but, I think I was over doing it....
I need to maintain a steady pace without killing myself.

Just finished moving ...what a CHORE!!!!!!!!!


I finally MAY have some wedding plans settled...and ready to get this ball on the road.. (another long and never ending stresser) can't wait for this day to come! Can't wait

Calgone TAKE ME AWAY!

Walking these pounds off!

I've been walking with a dear office buddy everyday. I know by walking it's going to take sometime so I need to add something that will shock my body and get this weight loss moving!

I woke up this morning around my usual 4am time... There is something that I do that really need to stop doing.. And that is looking at other people's photos and wishing I could look like that! I have to remind myself that I am Alana ... Divinely made by God and perfect in his sight! I have to learn to be me... Be confident .... Be strong and not let anyone make me feel I am less than I am ...even me!!

Work out hard yes! Eat right of course and the pounds will drop! My fiancé tells me how much he loves me physically and mentally... And that is one thing I have to remind myself!

I will lose this weight but while I am doing it!!! I will do it with confidence and determination! And I could care less what anyone thinks!

It's starts now!

Down... But not for long...

Having a down morning... Sometimes I wish I could just snap my fingers or blink hard enough so that all this physical ugliness can just go away! I know my heart... I am a beautiful woman inside and on some good days on the outside too. But it's not enough... I am tired of looking and feeling the way I do! It's so hard but I am so determined to make a change!

I want to be happy and confident in me no matter what anyone says... "you look great.. Or my fiancé will call me sexy" I want to actually feel like that... And it not just be some words am hearing!

I just feel blah... And down.... But not for long... It's just time for me to stop playing around its not a game any more.

Great Work out day

Today I burned 565 calories by walking and doing this Nike Circut training for 30mins!! I didn't think I could push through but I'll force myself every night!!! I also walked for 20mins today!!!

Now my food needs help.. I almost went all my daily calorie intake but, this work helped me out with burning my lunch and dinner! :-)

Healthy looking diva in her wedding dress here I come!!

Sore

I got up this morning when my alarm does what it does best at 4am! SNOOZZEEEE I got up and walked to the bathroom and when I came back out... I almost tilt over... Then my back and legs felt like I was just in a bad fight or something! I thought to myself... Alana you are in bad shape....and there aint NO way I'm jogging/walking/running no where right about now. I went back in bed!

It's around 3pm and I am not feeling a little better... diffidently sore...but, I have to do my afternoon BRISK 4.5 mph walk that I did yesterday. I'll make sure I stretch really well so I wont feel like this tomorrow am.

I need to also go out and get me some vitamins... yeah i think i'll make that happen on my next trip to Wegmans!

I won't stop and I'll never give up!

*Pic of me in 1996 at my grandmother house... I would love to look like this again